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Your T will understand completely. It sounds like you have conditioned yourself not to let out the tears. This could be something to do with not being able to let out those emotions at the time of the trauma. Maybe it really wasn't safe to show your true feelings at the time but it is safe to do so now. Be gentle with you.
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