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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
((((( granite )))))
I can feel the fear and frustration in your post....You did an awesome job of raising the topic with T....and I can totally understand the fear that paralyzes...the fear of being hurt...again. It's a scary process. ((( HUGS )))
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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
(((( granite ))))
I'm so glad that you are open to seeing things differently...and remember, this is all an exploration in order to help you. If you shared those feelings and questions with T, it could lead to some kind of understanding that could benefit you and take you closer towards healing. I know it's super scary....and we get so caught up in the moment and the intensity that we can't see the bigger picture....I need to do this as well, because I find myself SO resistant which slows the process for me. Resistance plays a role as well, in order to preserve safety...at some point, we need to find the strength to push through.
And you're doing SUCH a great job!!
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this week is a huge week for me and i need to stay calm i really do.i know i tend to be very resistant.i know this about myself.right now i am trying to see how my T must have heard this question and as far as i can see it was completely differnt than i had intended it.i think learning may have hit it about how she may have thought i was asking something differnt.i really did get cought up in the moment and that was it for me as soon as i asked her the question and she said is this a test i completely shut down and not much else of what she had to say mattered.i had a bunch of horrible thoughts running through my head telling me how bad all this was and how bad i am and stupid.it was just over for me.
