I can't cry either. Well, I guess I technically CAN....as in I am "capable"....I just feel UNABLE to do it. The tears just don't come. I know they're in there.....somewhere.....but I can't access them. I wonder what T thinks of me not crying as well. I wonder sometimes if he thinks I'm some kind of cold hearted b**** because I don't....can't.....show that emotion. I'm terrified of crying, esp in front of him.. For me, I personally cannot STAND the thought of him sitting there, watching me fall apart. I've gotten that my entire life (if I ever did cry) there was never any hand holding, hugging, comfort. I don't cry to get a response from people (like, I'm not manipulative that way or anything) but you know, when you are upset or crying, it would be nice if the other person was you know, HUMAN, and didn't just sit there and stare at you. I know that will happen in T and that's another reason I hold back.

UGH.

No answers or advice, just hugs.