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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess
I can't cry either. Well, I guess I technically CAN....as in I am "capable"....I just feel UNABLE to do it. The tears just don't come. I know they're in there.....somewhere.....but I can't access them. I wonder what T thinks of me not crying as well. I wonder sometimes if he thinks I'm some kind of cold hearted b**** because I don't....can't.....show that emotion. I'm terrified of crying, esp in front of him.. For me, I personally cannot STAND the thought of him sitting there, watching me fall apart. I've gotten that my entire life (if I ever did cry) there was never any hand holding, hugging, comfort. I don't cry to get a response from people (like, I'm not manipulative that way or anything) but you know, when you are upset or crying, it would be nice if the other person was you know, HUMAN, and didn't just sit there and stare at you. I know that will happen in T and that's another reason I hold back.
UGH.
No answers or advice, just hugs.  |
No answers or advice from me either. Yesterday's therapy session was really intense for me (I tried to write about it on another thread, which I think bombed), and there were moments where I thought...I MIGHT CRY. And I feel as though I need to ....cry But then I didn't...in part because I didn't feel that I could ...as if I did not have the ability to do
that in the presence of someone who was just staring..It was so hard. even now, I feel just really stuck with un-cried tears (is there any such thing?).
no answers just hugs....
