Yes I am, but it seems pointless I can acknowledge/recognize that I've made progress in therapy and thus far has been helpful even self saving when I was in pretty dark places. I don't know I'm just tried of "trying and trying" like I don't know what I'm looking for like maybe an overall "I'm over it" kind of thing. No matter how hard I try "its" always there and I'm just done. When does it all stop?! And I know everyone is different blah blah blah I know and it takes time, but seriously sighs I want a relationship I want to be able to sleep peacefully at least 90% of the time I want a family of my own someday and I can't do any of it if I'm stuck. And yes I voice all of this to my T. Her reply wasn't nothing that I didn't already know and that was it takes time, be patience. Now I'm just irritated!