Wendy, could it be some sort of self-punishment? Or maybe it's just the depression getting to the point where you can't motivate yourself to do it? Don't think about it, Sweetie. Just do what you have to do. Kick it into auto-pilot.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Wendy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Go, go, go.

, too.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.