Thanks guys. Cyber hugs really do feel so good.

I think I get antsy too, because I want to make sure that *I* leave before he decides he can't help me. I really don't trust that he will be there long term if that's what it comes down to, kwim? But if I get healthy and leave first, then he won't have the opportunity to hurt me through terminating me. Does that make any sense?

God I hate this.