When I was in therapy, I'd write letters and my t would write back. It was way before voice mail and and phones like to day, and no e-mail existed either. But I saved all those letters like they were gold. So comforting to me.

I'd say that one of your goals is to take a chance and ask for what you need. Your T will not reject you I'm sure of it.

Keep us posted on your progress. I feel like you will find courage to do this in the near future.