No. I've always done the best that I could do under the circumstances. I might not be proud of everything I've done, but I wouldn't take it back - I've learned a lot from those experiences. And now that I'm thinking about the things that I've done under the influence of extreme moods, I actually feel a lot better about myself. I wasn't doing bad things because I'm a bad person, but rather because I didn't win the genetic lottery at every chromosome. There's nothing there to feel guilty about. If anything, I should feel guilty for giving myself such a hard time for such a long time without asking for help.

But I gave up on guilt ages ago; I don't have the energy for that kind of nonsense!