I feel like a child. A very hurt one. She feels betrayed. I feel betrayed. Mother was cheating and she had known that the man sexually abused girls, like what he did to me. Why, then did she stayed in that relationship for so long? The betrayed child part of me asks. I don't know. I have a hard time being alone with a male without thinking the want something sexual. I was feeling like a very happy child yesterday but now I feel like the very insecure one. I'm still scared the counselor might dismiss my concerns, but most of me feels numb to it. Gah! Was anyone else dimissed before?