Hey everyone ..
ok fininishing up day 3 on ( Fanapt ) and saw my T today he was very quick to notice a huge change in me.. he could tell immediatly i was having a hard time finding words let alone stringing them into a sentance.

I cant really explain how I feel but I will try ..

My brain is still racing a billion miles an hours but I feel so sluggish I dont even care.. but i apparently care anough to be worried all to hell over it ...

Im having a horrible time speaking or typing out a sentance this post alone will probably take me an hour to finish .

I try to type a sentance and i forget half the words and the other half is misspelled beyond belief.\

I have been trying to handwrite a letter to my friend in another state .. I had to switch to pencil to help with mispelling but I cant seen to write a completel sentance ( this was happenening even before the new med .. i use to have really nice handwriting now its almost unreadable .

I tried last nite to watch some videos on youtube by " ray william johnson" Hes hysterical !!!!! but so much of his stuff blew right past me I wasnt able to read it or understand it.

Im pretty sure as my body adjusts to this new medication the " sluggishness" will go away .. the problems with making copmplete sentances arent a "new problem" per say ...

I guess i just feel like im gettng worse and worse along this path towards finding a decent combo of meds .. or maybe my mind has given up and turned to goo...

the only up side is i lost another lb .. so total of 4 in the last week .