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I am sorry that you are addressing so much, ofcourse your heart strings are being pulled on in just too many directions. Your going to have to be very strong and it is understandable that you are frightened.

I think that you have to try to find a way to make a conscious decision to just allow yourself to ride this wave of life, there is nothing you can change, whatever comes will come and it is important that you do make that decision to accept.

I just got through a very long process and while addressing it my therapist told me to make every effort to do just what I am telling you here. It was hard and I was scared and I did feel very alone but I kept thinking about his words in the back of my mind.
I think that is what got me through my ordeal. It got me through it but I will admit that I still struggled, which is normal for anyone addressing something that involves another life.

I understand you love your parents, they were good to you and you are now making every effort to be good to them, that is so nice of you, they are so lucky to have you.
The table is going to truely turn now as you take on their care and comfort, being strong for them, letting them know you are with them and they are not alone. You are going to get the chance to show them all the personal strength they bestowed on you. You can use this thread to have a place to come to let out your emotions as I know that you wont want to show your parents your deep concern your going to have to be strong.

All you can do is your best to make them as comfortable as possible and help them accept whatever they may face, I am sure they are frightened too.

Now, as far as the boyfriend is concerned, well, you cannot control him either, either he is going to see his wrongs and make efforts to repair or he will take this time to release himself from the commitment. The best thing for you is to accept his decision as hard as that may be. Sadly we cannot make someone be honest, trustworthy or faithful, that is a quality that person must present on their own.

Whatever you do, please take care of yourself in all this. If you need to release, yes come here, we are here, listening, understanding and sending prayers and hugs to you. Whatever you need to say, we are here we will listen, and keep sending supportive hugs.

I shall say some prayer for you to recieve the strength and guidance you need in this very challenging time for you.

(((((( As many hugs as you need)))))

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