M24S

I'm glad you kicked the anorexia. Well done!

But now you could try to stop the laxatives as they will harm you if abused. If you feel bloated through eating more than usual, try a bulking agent (good UK ones are Regulan and Fybogel) and it will work a healthy motion through you but without that horrible purging action.

Anyway, purging won't stop the food being absorbed when passing through the gut, so you may as well give it up.

We must try to feel more relaxed around food, then there would be no problem. I always recommend Susie Orbach's book 'Fat is a Feminist Issue' - you could give it a whirl.

FG