I know it is hard in school, it's a community of all kinds of stresses. Not sure if this will help you but...I used to do a lot of temporary work and was once assigned to a property management place. One day my boss was talking badly about someone in the building. I remarked that I hoped that he didn't talk about me like that behind my back. and he said,"Isn't it more important what you think of yourself?" It was not a great job but it taught me a great life lesson. We can't control what is going on in the world but we can control how we think about ourselves. If you accept yourself, the world will follow. Now how to do that?..well perhaps start at home. Parents are a huge part of how we think of ourselves. you mentioned that your parents would probably accept your sexual orientation. If you can't talk to them about it have you ever thought of writing them a letter? If they respond with understanding, you will then have that nugget of acceptance in your heart which will help you weather the trials and tribulations of life. I know you would definitely feel better about everything. or, if that is too hard to do..maybe try to remember that everyone in your school is probably dealing with some kind of problem and many are probably feeling lonely too. Perhaps keep an eye out for someone who might need a friend and try to be extra nice to them. maybe you could make a friend that way? and then you would want to hang on. So here's hoping something will work out for (((you)))--T