I am awake again. Forgive me, but I'm going to keep posting in this thread so that it'll be clearer to me if my mood/thoughts turn dark.

Feel all right. Took extra antidepressant, though that isn't going to make a difference to today. Should I tell my doctor that later?

Trying not to think about it in specific terms, but I can't help it being there in general in my head.

Smoking a lot more than usual.