Thank you

I think I'll make some toast and watch the news - see if anyone is going to save the Euro. Then I might go back to bed. There is no limit to the length of time I can sleep as long as I make my appointment later.

My mother has gone to work: she is worried about me as I am about her.

...

And instead I just sat staring into space for a couple of minutes. I can hear him moving around next door. I wonder if he knows, if he's laughing. I've got a file on the computer for everyday full of his banging and hammering.

He watches. I know that he watches. But does he listen? Did he hear me call my CPN yesterday? I just can't bear to think that he is enjoying my misery. Makes it worse.

Perhaps he's got some kind of way of spying on my internet, and he's watching every word I write.

I know these are crazy thoughts, but I can't help having them. With everything that's happened, I wouldn't be at all surprised to find out the crazy things are true. Besides, I think you naturally have a tendency to try and anticipate what's going to happen next, and we're already in crazy, surreal territory right now.

At least these thoughts are not the horrible ones. I'm still all right. Think I'll go and make that toast.