Hi, Reesa, welcome to PsychCentral (PC). This might be a good place to talk about some things on your mind as we can be pretty anonymous here. If you can afford it in your real life, I would look for a therapist, someone trained to listen and in-person anonymous to the other people in your life.

Have you ever tried keeping a journal, writing about some of the things bothering you? That helped me a lot, too.