Hi, ruby. It sounds like you are giving Carla all your personal power; you don't decide who you like, you let other people call the shots. If you attack other people because they are her friends, I don't see anything that makes you seem friendly, that other people would want to be friends with?

You cannot buy people's interest, you really want Carla to like you and, as your story shows, no one can change your mind about that (besides you). If, for whatever reason she was not interested in you, no one can change her mind about that besides her, but why should she? No one can be friends with everyone, it does not work that way; you are not friends with all the others, look at how you have hurt them? Being like other people cannot work either because you are not those people. You have to be like yourself only and people will be attracted to that or not, depending on their own interests and needs.