((((((((((((((Stargazerlily))))))))))))))
I am sorry you are feeling so low. As far as your cutting goes hon, I have relapsed several times but what you need too do, besides nurture yourself, is know you have stopped before and you can do it again. Never look at a relapse as a failure but instead use it too tell yourself what was done today is today and leave it at that. From the minute you stopped is the beginning of another chance. Hang on tight hon!!!!!!
HUGS
Cher