That is the worst thing: I enjoy it too. I agree with the grrr. It is hard to stop something you like. We just have to trust that stopping is in our best interest. *Zen rolls her eyes* On the other hand that only reason I like it is because I am so darn miserable leading up to it. If I wasn't in so much emotional pain I probably wouldn't like it at all. Interesting thought.

As far as the stress goes, I think you should listen to Heather. You seem to push yourself too hard and take up too much slack for others. It sounds familiar. Everyone who does this raise your hand *Zen raises hers up high* I was talking to a co-worker tonight about that very thing. Just wanted you to know you are not alone.
Carrie