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Sanada · Dec 08, 2011, 05:19 PM

hello christ.

I used to self harm a lot. It did not in the end do any good for me. The way I did it was weird, I called it 'drawing' on my body. People around me said that , that was even worse.

Find your self worth and maybe try this as a way to not self harm.......

- I stopped self harming thinking I could never do this, it was weird. I had no faith in myself. The last time I cut was April this year, it was when I got my first laptop and dicovered PC within 3 days.
What happened was I was cutting and at the same time doing what I am doing now, trying to help others from self harming. I looked at myself, I looked at PC; thats when it happened, a trigger happened in my head/brain that it has to stop, I realised I could never advise people to not s/harm while doing it myself.
The biggest problem though was I was addicted to self harm, after 5 years I guess thats to be expected. What could I do, I had to replace my self harm with another sort of counting cutting (thats what it was like for me cutting, it was like counting the times of self harm, it made me sleep well). So.......I replaced cutting with counting days of 'Not' cutting. Every day that went by I counted, and I watched my body heal - I have to say that after being here in PC my body has healed loads and I am very surprised at the level of healing my body has done. I thank PC with all my heart for that.
To sum up, the counting of 'Not Cutting', replaced 'The Cutting', and it worked for me. Chris, you dont need to cut, you have us here, your body is a temple. So is mine and all here in PC.
Please try to think about what I have wrote. In the moment think of distraction from self harm.....use whatever you can do to distract your self.

I hoped this helped.
Good Luck.
S