Several years ago I was diagnosed with depression after my long-term boyfriend started cheating on me with multiple females. Just recently I broke up with my now ex and we tried to remain friends. Everything was going great until he started spending more and more time with his baby mama. He started to get verbally abusive towards me telling me that I'm worthless and will never amount to anything ever. I'm starting to get the same feelings and thoughts that I did when I was diagnosed.

I still deep down want to be his friend and even told him that he was the main reason I stopped hurting myself. His only response was that was my opinion and to let him know when I stopped with the drama.

I'm thinking relationships/boyfriends are my trigger o_O