I hate being in therapy. I don't know if it's helping. Maybe it is but I hold back a lot. I'm afraid of exposing who I really am.....who I REALLY am, to another human being. I hate the fact that I can't trust my T yet. I hate that I can't/won't completely let him in. I don't want to be dependent on him. I don't like the "therapeutic relationship" and the unbalanced nature of the whole thing (I struggle with this a LOT....I've brought it up in T and have gotten really nowhere as of yet). I hate the fact that I'm so impatient with myself. I hate the life that I had growing up and that I'm even in therapy. I hate how I'm a grown adult who can't get her crap together long enough to function like a "normal" person without therapy. I don't like how long it's taking me to "make progress" with my therapist and with myself and my problems.