Hey Penny-

I've been thinking about you, as I too am struggling with PTSD. What I have found helps me when I go into rages (which is often, unfortunately) is putting lavender essential oils on my wrists and breathing deeply. Sounds dumb, but, it helps. I read it in a book once and now when I start to feel everything building up I go grab the oils. It's my comfort smell and it brings my mind somewhat more into focus.

Also, about the clean house thing... I read once that if you feel like your house is too dirty, make yourself clean your sink. Just do the dishes and get the sink clean, even drying it down afterwards. I dunno why but it makes you feel cleaner if you have a clean sink, even if the rest of the house doesn't get done!

Thoughts and prayers with you.