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Originally Posted by treehouse
((((((((MUE)))))))))
I totally trust that you did just what you were supposed to do in therapy today.
Sometimes we need to regroup. Sometimes we need to just go and be safe with T a little. Sometimes we need to feel what it's like to NOT tell to remind ourselves that we really DO want to tell.
T tells me sometimes "This is how this is supposed to be. It couldn't be happening any other way"...and it reminds me that my journey is unique, and right. I don't always like how it's unfolding, or understand it, but when I look at the big picture, I'm moving in the right direction, so I try to trust that T's right.
You've come so far, MUE. Your journey is unfolding as only your journey can unfold. 
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Aww, thanks, Tree....
"Sometimes we need to feel what it's like to NOT tell to remind ourselves that we really DO want to tell. "
Wow, that was amazingly insightful...and really hit home for me...I have been agonizing over what's being bottled up inside....I need to make progress, because this is eating me alive....
Yet, I know that when I am in that office, I have such a hard time...*sigh*
I used to be able to write stuff down....and get my emotions on paper....and I haven't even been able to do that over the last year or so. I feel like I've gone backwards, even though I know I have made great strides forward in other areas....
I am trying to get past self-blame....to admitting shame and humiliation...and I hate it.