I can imagine how extremely difficult this task is.....and only you can determine if you're ready/willing to do that.

I am working on opening up about shame and humiliation...and I read something tonight about writing letters to my abusers...and I felt an overwhelming surge of fear and anxiety.

I remember one time, I made an attempt at that....and my T could sense that I didn't put all my feelings into it....I didn't FEEL it...I just stated it....and there is a huge different. I'm scared to allow myself to FEEL it....let alone share it...

So....I can understand what you might be going through....and it's SO hard...