I got some good sleep 12/08 17:00-22:30 unfortunately I was late for work-- eek, glad I have a good cover...
and IDK i just feel odd- I have had this feeling as I am not really on earth if you know what i mean, like an out of it-- a some what obliviously on what is going on.. I just feel so funny in my head... my emotions have not stopped swings thought-

Just a bit ago i felt rather depressed like no one likes me, and that I am utterly alone... and that it is all tricks to me to be nice.... i am sorry i go down this path.... i know emotions dont come out of no where i guess, but they do for me a lot.

I guess part of it may be that I can not have a decent conversation with my boyfriend due to his phone sucks- it always drops calls, it always goes in and out- granted my phones are not the top of them all- they are decent enough to talk to someone for a full conversation 95% of the time. the other 5 % splits to bad areas and where almost no phones work unless land line.

IDK it could be part of it- I like to talk to him.... it helps a lot...

I still feel bad about my brother.

Today I just want to be left alone, I hope no one comes to smoke with me- i want to be just a lone