.....not when I notice signs. Instead, when I begin to feel threatened by the signs. There are always signs. I can choose to monitor them, or not. I choose to monitor.

My doctor has learned to trust my judgment. He has also learned that therapeutic responses to meds can occur at what appear to be very small, even trivial, doses. I respond to about 0.05 mg clonazepam, as one example. That is not a typo. He raises his eyebrows, once in a while. Gives me "that look". But if I say I don't need a clonazepam renewal because I only take a fragment of a pill, once in a while, he's not about to argue.

I'm the gatekeeper to my mouth, and nothing passes that threshold but on my consent.

Lar