...sure..I had know idea this glance at this girl would make me make the most dangerous decisions ever...not the ones that make any sense anyway...

I was damaged!...I didn't know this?
I was a walking time bomb...gettin' around on some 'unknown' energy
...guess it's called "angst"...but for so long man?

I clung to this image of this girl...never forget it ..the party thing happening...late after all the ********..everyone lays back...we connected....
after that I was @$#^ed ...no going back...

but I was damaged...severely..
by my upbringing...I had no damn skills! damn it!
no-one around me loved each other!

I was no witness to good lovin'
just anger and hate!

I got dragged along the way...

she came after...but she was somehow contained...

I kept all my **** to myself...not to hurt her...
but I knew we were different just by reactions!

ya see the borderline person is well adjusted to any feeling..
or well un-adjusted..makes no difference..

I was created by bad feelings....therefore I get obsessed with the good ones and no-one can handle it

a bit whoops huh?