Sadly, when we are abused as children, we have no power....we are all born perfect and innocent...then a person/people tell us lies about ourselves, shame and blame us and we believe it.

Then we spend our adulthood suffering for something that was not our fault. Old tapes and old lies.

Logically we understand that, it is the ILLogic that we fight; that we are not worthy. That is NOT true.

Perhaps you could put the anger where it belongs......on the abuser(s)......I love the term "Restorative Justice"---This is what you did; this is how it made me feel. you might mention that to your t......write a letter to the abuser(s).......for yourself (you can send it or not send it, of course), but the idea is to get out the anger that is so destructive and does not belong to you.

Think of it as taking your power back; it was stolen from you as a child.

Usually the abused (us) spend a lot of time (sometimes a lifettime) of suffering, and the criminal/abuser(s) live their lives carefree as if nothing had ever happened....totally backwards!!

Don't feel embarrasd by your feelings; they are all you have to tell you what is going on and what you are expereiencing. Feelings aren't right or wrong.......they simply....are.
Hugs, Alice