I've recently been where you r aside from being in the hospital. My T and I (along with my mother) have a safty plan for me if/when I get this way. I managed to keep myself out of the hospital this past week thanks to my mom. Although part of me feels as though it would have been a better option. My pdoc just can't get me stablized and I have 3 kids to raise... A lot going on here too I know it's no fun but try to hang in there (honestly I hate it when people say that) many