Sorry it's taken me a bit to reply.......
don't know when I'll ever quit struggling with feeling vulnerable.....

I appreciate your wonderful support Sleeps (--*off topic for a mintue-- I'm wishing you well with your surgery**)

January-- I'm very sure printing this out is good advice--- but the very thought of it makes my stomach turn--then such a panic!!
I thank you for your support --- it's just...... oh, what is wrong with me........ there is something so HUGE holding me back from letting him know I'm not where he thinks I am.
With all you have going on in your life and you took the time to reply to me---you are really kind and I appreciate it.
Please take care January.