Thanks everyone...this morning/afternoon seems to be a bit better. I see T a week from today. Just need to continue to be aware of how I'm feeling so I can help my T and Pdoc help me stabilize my mood better. This year has just been very frustrating with my depression stuff...but I make the absolute best of the good times. It seems like I always dip a bit in the early part of each month...theres no reason for that just seems that way. I need to find areally good way to deal with obsessive sui thoughts as when those hit I have a hard time seeing an alternative way out which just causes the sinking to continue a bit faster. I am gonna do some writing for T next week. Hopefully she can help me find a better way to cope been doing some mindfulness stuff but not really helping. So on to something different...whatever that is?!?!?