I did call my friend, and he came over. It's at least a small comfort. I'm still not doing well. I'm afraid of what I could do. I have obligations and that's the only think that is keeping me safe. I'm going to try exercise again later today, to see if I can get my head back. Right now it's in a "fog" and it's very painful. I just wish I could get it out of my head.

and Psych Evaluation is done, I have a reading disorder, and ADHD. When the ADHD is under control the reading disorder goes away. I"ll be talking with my doctor and see if we can try an ADHD med to help next semester/some other alternative measure to help me control it when I read things.