I'm glad you found this forum. Post as often & as long as you want/need. That's what we do here. Look around ... You'll see I mean it!

You do have a plate-load of woe right now. One of the toughest things for a woman to come up against is realizing she may not be bearing children when she wants to. That is a singular kind of blow. It takes a miracle sometimes to get past it, but ,aybe you & your husband can find one.

I'm so glad you quit smoking! Me too, a 3-pk/day habit. Now, your doing that is sooo impressive! What gave you the strength for that?

Have you asked your counselor to design a new goals strategy with you? If he isn't open to that you may need to move on to someone with other skills.

Please keep coming back. Lots of support here, just for the asking.