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Originally Posted by LJayDow
Im pretty newly diagnosed with BPD and am largely still trying to get my head around the moods etc
I had a blazing row with my partner last night, which was over something so petty but has now left me questioning whether I was right or not, or was it just my moods kicking off again
I am now feeling that 'empty' horrible feeling, does anyone else get this after arguements? Is it a reaction to the harmony being disturbed?
Laura
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Yeah it's difficult not knowing if the condition is messing around with how i am interpreting what's being said or done.. This is the biggest question I'm facing now too.
The arguements and blow ups that happened when I felt that something was said or done to get at me in some way, or manipulate me often leave me feeling guilty and like I should have handled things better. Even if he insisted that he was not guilty, something would still make me doubt.
But the relationship has just ended and now I need to get some help to try and work out what was going on and find out how much of the condition was affecting my thinking.
I don't know a lot about this condition yet but read that many have trouble with these things. Also swinging feelings of great love for people to not wanting to be around them. It's so very strange. I hope to have some answers soon too.