thank you and yes I just wonder if anyone feels like me and what do they do about it. Sometimes I feel like I am cut off from the world on the other side of things famialiar. Like I'm just a voice in the darkness. Other times like today I feel like one part of myself but can't find the other parts. Can't just snap out of it and be another role that I play in my life. It's good to be the one thing but I wish I could just reach over and be the other things when I need to be instead of hoping waiting obsessing about that role till it fills me. But then the other role slips away out of reach. It hurts.

Not so concerned about what it is as how to get rid of it and be the parts of myself I choose to be instead of being stuck in one role without being able to easily get back to the other. Went for a nice workout at the gym and feel better now. Also realize that the other things have slipped away as I put on this runner part of me. Maybe I need to learn some. I don't know how to do many things and slip in and out of roles without having a hard time. It's like being a sister then a runner then a presentable person then a worker then a spirtual person then a wife then a XYZ. When I am one the other is gone untill I obsess to bring it back. thanks for listening and feeling braver now