at times depression has felt like a vice hold on my mind. now I understand my mom suffered from it. from research it can be something wrong in the limbic system; my doc yesterday said there are genetic tests for what meds i could be allergic to or which ones will work for me. i don't think depression is repressed anger, because i'm not conscious of it. it feels like at times the mind goes into a sleep mode, even if you feel emotionally 'UP'. I don't have the answers; but I'm sick of suffering with it.
started a new med yesterday which i've taken before and today felt a dramatic change in ability to focus and look all the way back at the kitchen shelves to see what was there!! 'so if a med can fix the condition, it stands to reason it must be bio/chemical within my nervous system or brain chemistry. medical science has a long way to go in this area; mental health is not the top priority in research funds, but I'll stop here. thankful to be in my right mind today so I can pursue my goals and happiness in this life.