Sounds like a lot of High Drama going on in this family. No wonder you are anxious. What would that party have been like if you did go?

People screaming at each other, and not listening to each other, and hanging up and feeling hurt...that's a lot to deal with. You made a mistake, and your Dad seems to think you did it on purpose. Why would he think that about you?

If I were you, I'd concentrate on my life with my husband, and let some time pass without communicating with your family. You have a right to be human and make mistakes without the whole world coming down on you. Sounds like you have enough to deal with already with your medication problems and your OCD problems.

Right now, I think you should take care of yourself, and limit your worries to your own home.

Choices, it's all about choices.