So I've been talking to my friend, and came close to telling my sister about what happened, or what came close to happening. I'm scared, and i hate talking about what is really going on, especially around finals. I know I need to be some where else, but I can't I have things I have to do, things to get done, I have to be to work, I need the money. Why does everything have to happen at once?

Game Plan:
I'll exercise tomorrow and I'll try to play an instrument for tomorrow morning.
I'll focus on my studies and write a paper.
I'll come on here If I can't get sui or si off my mind, or come close to it.
I'll talk with my friend tomorrow, and hopefully get things more inline for my tests.

I know I'd be safer at a MH but I can't go, I don't want to, I'll do anything to stay away, and the only way is if.... use your imagination.