I feel like I'm nothing, I have no importance and no reason to be here. I have been on PC a lot lately, just not posting because what is there to say, I feel like I can't comment because as much as I care I am in no way able to lay out my thughts lately. Talking and interacting with people even friends and family has become a chore, neccicary and unwanted. I get stressed from being around people yet there times when I want to be around people I can't really explain it. I went over a month without SI but recently started doing it again. I'm getting worse at hiding it people have been asking me whats wrong and I say nothing but they don't believe me. I have my mother conviced I am okay which despite the fact she wants to help her being involved just adds to my stress. I SI from stress, and stress has been abundent lately. Writing helps me when I write I don't SI, but then I'll get writers block and go back to SI. I am failing almost all of my classes at school, failing P.E. because I dont want to change because if I do everyone would see my scars and I don't need that. I have ben saying things without thinking and really I just can't take it my life never got this bad before I go to school just to get all stressed from the amount of people and my grades plus the worries someone will find out I SI and I just dont know anymore......My frinds are starting to notice and I just put on my fake smile and pretend I'm okay, they don't need to worry about me, they have their own problems.....I keep forgeting things all the time in the middle of a sentence I will stp and ask what I was saying I don't know whats wrong with me I just don't care anymore....