One of our friends was coming home tonight from university for the year.

I knew that.

What I didnt know was that boyfriend was going out to pickhim up with Lauren and Heather (lauren is dissociative too and I havent seen her in a couple of months because she has cancer and had to move to her parents place for a while)

I thought it was weird when cory didnt come online tonight to say goodnight. Well I called and he told me they were all at the airport...noone even asked if I wanted to go....

And on top of that he just said that he had to go right quick all of a sudden..

I feel terrible. these are my best friends why would they leave me out?

I should have known noone wants us around. Im hiding and never coming out. I am no good, I must be why else would someone do something like this..

he says he told me saturday night but sat night Iwas switching all over the place, it was bad.. I dont remember...