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Originally Posted by Secretum
Confused, you have an interesting view of it. I think it's probably a good thing that you look for external causes; even if there really wasn't one, feeling like you have an explanation might make you feel like you have more control. I'm glad that you haven't SI'd, but sorry that you've had strong urges.  Are the "negative voices" hallucinations? I've read that a lot of severely depressed people have auditory hallucinations of voices telling them that they are worthless. It's never happened to me, and I'm glad; it sounds really scary! |
I don't think so, because I don't 'hear' anything. Like, I know the voice is mine but it is uncontrollable and results in me being preoccupied with fighting myself. It is really exhausting! Well, I think I still have strong urges to do it because I made myself stop a month or two ago. Boyfriend was really upset and pretty much cried a couple times. Sooo, now I think about it but don't do it.
I don't think externalizing it helps at all either. I have blamed people for things they've never done before. It doesn't lead to much more control.
I'm going through an episode right now. Just riding the tide til it's over. (Probably means I need to see my doc again. -_-
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Originally Posted by Anika
Confused, I get those negative voices too, I wake up and from the minute I do all I hear is " you don't want to be here" " you bleep bleep " " your worthless" " you deserve to ___" . That is the absolute toughest part of depression for me. Someone once advised me to talk back to the voices, so I did, and the voices got worse. I haven't figured a way around it yet, aside from trying to tune it out, but it really gets wearing.
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Same. It gets worse for me. I usually med change if it gets that bad.