Thank you all so much for your responses, they've really helped me see all different sides of the issue.

Danialla - You said... "Maybe a short term anti-anxiety is more what you need. " And that you didn't think what I was suffering from was major recurrent clinical depression. But, however, I've seen 2 seperate T's who recommend AD's because of the nature of my depression - and in that depression, while there is anxiety, it's not the main factor. And considering it lasts for around a month or so, I would think that's more than 'short term'. Now, I'm positive what I go through is depression because...hell, you just know. Maybe at the time you aren't sure or you think your tricking yourself into it but when you're out of it you look back and you just know. In my case, the last time I was depressed, I knew but I didn't care. I got, by far, the worst I'd ever been. You don't think about giving up when you have some short term anxiety.

I don't mean to try and knock what you are saying, I just want you to understand my situation and why I'm searching for the answer to this question. While my depression may not mirror yours, it is certainly depression because of that I'm sure...which completey sucks, but what can ya do?

Larry Hover - I see you've found a way to do it. Maybe I can figure out a way as well, although I doubt anyone would be willing to take that risk with me.

I know AD's aren't uppers, I know what they do and how they work, I just know I'm not comfortable taking them. And that's my issue, I know, but I just figured I'd ask and see if there was anyway people could take them on as as-needed basis. Thanks all!