....is there a way to change how long?...I don't really know matey?

I suffer from delayed reactions....I spend all my time ...(well almost)..

proving to the world around me,...that I am un-affected...

this causes the 'sudden' tumult of overwhelm...I never see it coming...
because I refuse to accept myself with all my faults...I can barely enjoy my best reflection and be nice to me..

I spend so much time trying to avoid myself that the feelings that happen along the way bunch up pretty bad...

I guess it's about fastening a connection within us and respecting 'us'...even simpler..liking us...
unfortunately many of 'us' were not taught or something bad happened and we deflect everything...

I feel safe when I can love me somehow...but it takes time...to know it's alright.

...people will just go about their thing...cos it comes natural to them...however un-natural to me it seems...lucky them huh?

we are quite clever...

it's ok