Smelling lavender sounds good!! I know I feel more calm when I have candles going.

I am the worst combination of my mother and father. The shame I feel everyday is horrible.

I'm freaked out a little. Just had the thought, started a few days ago, that some one who knows me may see my thoughts and feelings. Paranoid? I was thinking about what I have posted and thought it might be obvious. Likely? I don't know.

I've been laying in bed all morning. I think I should go clean my sink and pay some bills.

I'm feeling alone again.