yes the swinging 'feelings' are not only confusing for us but those around us cannot often figure it out and just get on with their thing...

My bpd takes this as rejection...and IMMediately!....

if I could simply stand back for a minute and think clearly?

and then my mind says to me ..."what is clearly?"...I am hurting!

and I need comfort....but off they go..and I believe it's not personal...they just know they won't get the comfort they need from me right at the time....so I can really push it...corner them...and I feel bad about it ...and

oh mate...I just shake my head as I writr this

bpd is a real social discomfort..

I have had relationships with adored sufferers and MY GOD!
I figured it would maybe cancel out or something?
but the distance between losin' it and really losin' it was so utterly tight!

no-one even knew what happened!
it was dangerous though I guess...even a bit exciting...
but a remarkable thing to walk out of a combined bpd love and hate affair..

some nasty **** and the weird thing is niether of us meant it...

we were a little damaged

but it's ok

to be a little or alot damaged..

we

I have learnt to dissolve those regrets I had no control over..

the borderline mind is so magnificent..it wants to solve everything...

emotions are not in the mind...

anyone got any ideas?