....and understand,

my meltdown could make me homeless within 3 days..

my translucent identity will maybe be punished with dark colours...

again!

amazing...in the meantime I must do the simple things...like wash things...eat some eggs...vacuum a floor that may no longer be mine...

but thats how it is sometimes

hopefully I can. be charming enough....and the people are nice....

if they take my bed...then some heades might wiggle in slow motion...

maybe it's nuthin'

I have been borderline for over twenty years and each time I panic...

well I panic..

I didn't know for the first 16 years...floating ...with bandaids..

each time I have an episode I panic...

no-one can take me away..

haha

it's true...I tried to make then do it over and over.

but the truth is I am very gentle....

despite my anger and violence....

I direct it at me

bpd is not ..

harmfull...not 'full' of harm

there is a bit harm though

but it's ok

it has to be