me too. I do have a friend that is definately concerned. I don't want to go back to the mental hospital. I just can't go back around Christmas again. I've been there, and all I wanted was to be with my family, not there. I can't deal with that right now. people need me, that's one thing that is keeping me. Great reason right? I'm trying to get away from the thoughts, but they just keep coming. I may have talked myself out of it this time.... but I'm still scared of the future. and I want to hide this from my family, they don't need this right now. Only two people that are close to me know about what's going on. and I intend to keep it that way. I hate telling people. well got to try to write a paper.