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Old Dec 10, 2011, 03:40 PM
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Blip is my favorite!!!
My blips are when I borderline psychotic/am significantly off (manic) for a couple days but stabilize without intervention.

Cycling- refers to the general highs and lows- think of pedaling a bike, up and down with them meeting in the middle somewhere.

mixed- that one bothers me. how can you be depressed and euphoric at the same time??? I guess its an extreme middle.
I have mixed states quite often. I can tell you how it is. First imagine that you are manic. So you're mind is racing, you have flights of ideas, can't keep hold of anything. Pressured speech, you just can't shut up or if you're not talking you're talking to yourself. Often pacing around in circles. Mind usually becomes a loop of obsessive, repetitive, and intrusive thoughts as well as all your plans and ideas. Tons of paranoia. Everyone is talking about you, or laughing at you. Most of the things going through your mind are negative.

Your body feels like it is vibrating but you have 0 motivation to do anything. You can't concentrate long enough to do any of your ideas. Creativity is shot, even though you have a million ideas you can't function at all. You're speeding and exhausted but can't sleep or rest or relax. You find no joy in what you enjoy normally (like depression.) Your negative thoughts are assaulting you so fast that you are constantly on the verge of breaking down in tears. Everything is annoying and irritating. You're in a barrage of self-hate inner talk, and you can't make it stop. You want to run screaming and yet at the same time just curl up in a ball and not move.

It literally feels like your mind is on full assault mode and it is terrifying and I can say if I ever feel like I'm actually "losing my mind" or "going crazy" that's it. This is when I am in the most danger of myself.

My psychiatrist said another term for mixed state is dysphoric mania, instead of the much more common "euphoric mania."
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nacht, Tosspot